We are almost 48 hours into 2019, and I have had a total of 8 hours of sleep. About 10 cups of tea and 1 cup of coffee. 3 small meals. 2 mini-breakdowns that didn’t quite explode, because in 2019 we have to be strong hardworking women who can keep it together and break down…… Continue reading So far..
It’s 8.20pm here and it’s probably 10.20 pm back at home.. I’m about to have a panic attack. I’m trying breathing exercise and to pen my feelings down as fast as possible. Im super duper nervous and all day I’ve been happy or at least trying to be. But waves of sadness have been coming…… Continue reading Goodbye 2018
I’m 21 right now. I’m basically the oldest I’ve ever been. When we were kids, I never wanted to grow up. I thought people who had double digits as their age were old. I used to think my childhood would drag out. That on the eve of me turning 10, God would press rewind, and…… Continue reading 21
Dear AJ,We were supposed to talk yesterday night, but you weren’t online, neither were you picking your calls, and it stung. A part of me thought “He fucking hates you bitch! Don’t you see that! Stop acting like a fucking desperate whore! You motherfreaking bitch!” So, that made me calm down. Because it’s true. I…… Continue reading 9/7/2018
When I was a kid, my dad traveled a lot for work. I thought it was the coolest thing on earth. I didn’t care for what they would do all day. All I saw, was him get on a plane, see different roads (that probably don’t have traffic), street lights that work, big snowy mountains,…… Continue reading Landed Safely.
I have this crippling fear inside of me that anything I do, will not work in my favor. It makes me stay in bed all day, or do anything but what I am supposed to do. It’s getting in the way of everything. Nay, I am getting in the way of everything. I am done…… Continue reading The impostor
I was really having a sad-moody day today and I found healing in two ways. One, was some good ‘ol (new) Daniel Caesar, and Two, Running (Jogging really but let me feel athletic just for today sawa?). I know, I know you must be thinking running? Running to go get food ama? No, no, I…… Continue reading 28 minutes